T-minus 5 days before Cabo San Lucas! I have been working my ass off to get into shape for Tough Mudder, for Drill Sergeant School, a single "cage fight", and for Her. I have been toying with the idea of finally trying out for Special Forces. I'm old, sure, but I meet all of the requirements. ASVAB, GT, Clearance, Airborne, Language.... the physical is coming along nicely. Who knows... I have a year and a half to make it happen (as in going the Officer route, as well as 18B or 18C - perhaps a Detachment Commander...) and I figure that, by 42, if I haven't done it, then I won't ever. If I could get the Ex to watch the kids... it could be done. I would only worry about Her. Distance and us just don't mix. Time will tell... my heart is in it. Shit, it never left. Just why is that?
Been running 3 to 4 miles every other day. I need to buck up and increase my miles, and keep doing pull ups, dips, push ups, abs... all the things to make dense, lean muscle, rather than gain size. Ideally, I would like to hit 175 to 185 lbs. I am currently 207 and, while I look ok, it is clear that I have 20 to lose easily. I really want to get rid of these G.D. love handles, I can say that much. Going for a 3.5 miler tonight. Probably step up to 5 per run (with a 2 miler for PT score and speed thrown in once per week) by February. Just need to find comfortable and viable/safe-ish routes to be able to hit morning, day, and night.
Must get back to my bike in the next month. Hoping to put some more money and time into it by mid Feb. Just like everything else, it takes dough. *sigh* All in all, 2012 is shaping up to be pretty good. My main thought is "am I a glutton for punishment, or is she really giving me a second shot? Human nature is to wonder, and my nature is to plan. I can deal and roll with it, but sure would be nice to know! lol.
